Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Lassie, the love of my life

this post is dedicated to the one and only amazing creature I've ever had and loved before which is so hard to let her go, so hard to say goodbye to, my lovely doggy, LASSIE

someone just called and i didn't pick it up.
my granny did.
I have this bad feeling but I cast it away.
then, she knocked my door and told me that Lassie has passed away.
I don't know what to do or what to say, I was really shocked and feel horrible.
My stomach hurts, it feels like blended.
I never thought that I would lose her this soon.
I'm not ready.
I know Mom has told me before that Lassie was sick, on Saturday.
She refused to eat.
I've always want to call Mom and ask how is Lassie.
but I think she'll be okay, nothing to worry about, so I didn't call.
I guess it's been about 7years Lassie stay with us, as a family.
And I still remember there's a time when she got eyesore that she can hardly open her eyes,
so I put insto into it and I cried over her seeing she surrendered like that.

I miss her. etw

I miss the time when she bites me with love.
I miss the time when she barks.
I miss the time when she runs over here and there.
I miss the time when she sneeze.
I miss the time when she yawn.
I miss the time when she chase those rats.
I miss the time when she digs the soil.
I miss the time when she afraid of thunder and rain.
I miss the time when she accompany Mom watching TV.
I miss the time when she sits there waiting for us to finish our dinner.
I miss the time when she licks me.
I miss the time when she acts naughty to catch our attention.
I miss the time when she relaxing in front of the fan, her favorite fan.

I miss the time when I fed her milk when she is sick.
I miss the time when I put my feet under her warm belly.
I miss the time when I play with her tail.
I miss the time when I cheated her.
I miss the time when I stroked her head, always.

And what hurts me the most is knowing that she won't run and barks to greet me "welcome home".
Hometown wouldn't be the same now without her.

I still can't believe that she has gone.
I wish this is just a dream.
Someone please wake me up.

Or even if it's real,
Someone please help me to wake Lassie up,
I'm begging you.

I don't know how to be strong, I can't keep my eyes to stop crying because the reality hurts me too much.

Goodbye Lassie my little oneYou gave me love and helped
Me find the sun
And every time that I was down
You would always come aroundAnd get my feet back on
The ground

Goodbye Lassie it s hard to die
When all the birds are singing in
The sky
Now that the spring is in the air
With the flowers everywhere
I wish that we could both be there

my bro used to write Lessie, and I've always write Lassie, just the matter of spelling anw.

"Life is not measured
by the number of breaths we take,
but by the moments
that take our breath away."

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

long lost baby J

hey bloggie it's been a while since the last time I blog.
kinda pissed of bcoz my ' w-e-t ' isn't working.
I can't type those words so I have to keep on copy paste them and it's super sucks.

Actually I'm going to write about our BBQ party at Jenny's last Saturday.
Jethro is the organizer.
At first I'm not sure Mom will allow me and I decided not to go.
but on Friday i heard a shocking news, guess what?!
J is in!! wohoo it's like a jackpot to me.
I miss him so damn much.
I've tried to forget him but I can't.
so on Friday night I asked Mom to allow me join the BBQ party.
Luckily Mom allowed me. I'm so freaking happy :DD
Jenny and Agnes fetched me at 5pm and we off to Cambridge together.
Jen had her fitness routine and we just sat there waiting for her.
after that we went to Brastagi to buy tomato sauce.
When we're otw to Jenny's, Jethro told us that they'd reached there.
We rushed and reached there at 6pm.
Hendry came alone at 6.30pm.
Cuz there's still much time, we watched soccer. hha
It's Liverpool vs Everton match. cmiiw. :p
Most of us didn't had lunch so Jen asked her servant to cook us Indomie..hhe

I thought that J won't come but then Jethro said that he'll be there at 8.
well, it's true J came at 8pm on a heavy rain using his Honda City..
hohoo I was nervous and freaking happy, we haven't talked for almost 10 months.
Why? Me as well don't know why he avoid me, we used to be so close..
we're once in love and that's all -end of story-
got no more memorable moments with him.

*err okay back to BBQ*
We play phak bang after some of my friends came.
if someone's lose, the winner will put powder on the loser's face.
I thought I won't lose. I'm wrong.
Jethro put it on my cheek, so did Hendri.
I kept on avoiding J but I gave up finally.
He told me to close my eyes, I did as he said.
Guess what happened?!!!
He put it on my LIPS!! *melting*
The best moment I had with him.
and if there's a chance, he'd get his hand closer to mine.
We grilled the chicken together. Just both of us. no one disturbed us.
*singing* BEST THING I EVER HAD -my version- ;p

at 12 we closed our first grilling session bcuz Bee had to leave.
Jethro and J also had to leave.
Before both of them leaved,
J showed his skill riding Hendri modified motorcycle and
sprinting his own modified car.
He was so hot doing that.
and oh we took turn to drive his car.
I drove his modified car which made me easier to drive.
I don't know, It's lighter than usual car.
How I wish I could kiss him on his cheek or he'd kiss me on my forehead.
Kay, it's not going to happen.
What happened between us is in the past and I had to keep moving on just like him.
But J, if you read this post, I've got to tell you that I'm waiting for you to love me back.
I would have confessed my love from the very first.
From now on you're the one and I'm not going to love anyone else esp. the guys I've mentioned before on my previous posts.
I miss you and I love you.